It’s happened to us all…..when someone is no longer a part of our lives….whether it be a death…..or simply a separation….the hurt is there….and it is oh so real…that only time will heal.
There is no rules….no playbook….no instruction manual on how someone is supposed to deal with any type of separation…..it just is….no words can even explain what the heart is feeling. So never allow anyone to tell you how you are supposed to feel…..it is….what it is.
The absence of someone…is indescribable…so much so that one is to the point where even breathing….is all that can barely be done….to go on. I know this….because I have lived this.
For me here lately….is the yearning for my grandma…..my mom’s…..mom. My guestroom in my home “houses” her actual bedroom furniture….from the chest-of-drawers to the vanity with huge mirror…where I would always sit while she would comb my hair as a young girl. When I walk into my guestroom…..I can truly feel her presence when I am in there…..I know that she is in there….because an overwhelming sense of peace will come over me…a comfort that I know is coming from her….it warms my heart…and I feel so much closer to her. It’s as if she is assuring me to not dwell on her being gone….because one day…..we will meet again.
Have you ever had someone enter your life….that you know was meant to be a part of your life….but that the timing was off in one way or another? You may have crossed paths unknowingly throughout your lives….not really knowing…that they were ever there…..but yet knowing that something was missing within yourself…well….that too my friend has happened to us all at one time or another in our lives.
You may even have that chance or two meetings….when your paths cross even for that brief moment….and then you never leave their mind….and they never leave yours. This…..my friend is because the time in your lives….to finally have everything align…..isn’t right….yet……but it will be….so hang onto those chance meetings….brief glances…..and moments of longing…..until you meet again…..and you will meet again.
Life….it’s a funny thing….changes happening every single day…never a dull moment you might even say. We often forget how delicate life really is…how time changes everything. I miss my step-dad and my grandparents more than words can say…I take comfort in knowing that they are always by my side….even if I can no longer hear their voice or touch their skin…..but their soul is still with me…..and this is what makes me smile.
I have so many friends that I have lost touch with over the years….but yet…I think of them often…knowing that they too are living their lives…hopefully being happy…healthy and safe….my memories of them all…..really do live deep in my heart.
So many times…..I have dreamt of turning back the hands of time….but with doing that I wouldn’t be where I am today….touching the lives that I have touched and for the lives that have touched mine in return. Instead…I rely on what the future holds for me….for the people I’m still meant to meet….and for the journey that still awaits me.
For the loved ones that I have lost…..my grandma….grandpa….and Papa-Joe…just to name a few….for me….it still feels like yesterday that I held you tight…and heard you laugh…I miss you all more than words can say….but take comfort in knowing it will all be okay…..until we meet again.
–Brenda
xo
